I just want things, anything, everything to change.

I'm so sick of everything staying the same.

I can't even make my own decisions anymore,

I moved into this house almost a year ago,
and i still dont know what I want to paint on my wall,

not because I haven't decided,
but because I dont want my best friend to hate it,

and i hate that.

And now its too late to paint anything because I'm moving interstate next year.

I change for people,
then I'm not happy with the person I am,
but I'm too scared to change again in case the person I changed for,
abandons me because they dont like who I've become.


This is such bullshit.